Have you identified personal flaws and worked on them?

Personal flaws are still very difficult.  

The Startling ResurgenceThis process can prompt self-doubt, questioning whether the resurgence of emotions indicates a regression to the original mental health condition. In reality, it signifies the natural progression of re-establishing your emotional baselin.   Re-Experiencing Emotions During Tapering ‍ A frequent concern shared among individuals prescribed antidepressants is the sensation of emotional numbness or indifference. Yet, as these medications are tapered or halted, a fascinating phenomenon occurs – rekindling the experience of emotions that may have been dormant for an extended period. This transformation can be particularly profound when considering the length of time during which emotional dullness prevailed. Transitioning from a state of limited emotional range to a realm of heightened sensitivity can evoke a mixture of curiosity, trepidation, and sometimes fear. Picture yourself encased within a block of ice. While under the influence of antidepressants, you may have been encapsulated in this icy exterior, detached from a significant portion of your emotional landscape. Gradually tapering the medication can be likened to the ice beginning to melt, leading to the emergence of a broader spectrum of feelings and emotions. ‍ The Startling Resurgence ‍ Reconnecting with emotions, especially those labeled as "negative," can be an unsettling experience for many. Imagine not shedding a tear for years, even in the face of sorrowful events. Tapering might unveil a newfound ability to cry during situations that once evoked no response. This process can prompt self-doubt, questioning whether the resurgence of emotions indicates a regression to the original mental health condition. In reality, it signifies the natural progression of re-establishing your emotional baseline. Similar revelations hold for "positive" emotions, catching individuals off guard with the return of sensations such as happiness. Adapting to Rediscovered Emotions Mastering the art of tolerating and comprehending emotions forms a pivotal aspect of the journey towards embracing the multifaceted emotional "rainbow." A noteworthy consideration when understanding emotions during tapering is that their return may not manifest all at once. Just as the melting ice occurs gradually, "un-numbing" unfolds over time. This process may encompass emotional bumps along the way, where periods of numbness intermingle with waves of intense emotions. An apt analogy would be likening emotions to ocean waves – they rise, fall, and come and go. Instead of resisting these emotional surges, learning to ride these waves becomes crucial. Developing emotional resilience and expanding your emotional capacity is achievable through introspection, utilizing coping tools, and leaning on the support of others. ‍

thats lovely that you enjoyed yourself dancing : ) Get healthy soon please

Helllooo I am kinda back but not really, I am now on the Discord of Trans Pulse and I love it. It is a much more comfortable platform for me and I use discord all the time anyways. I am just Liz there if someone wants to catch up with me there. I guess I see whats going on here too from time to time but will be not that active here. I kinda missed you all but I have needed the distance to go steps alone : ) And also I wish everyone a Happy Pride tooooo <3 I love you sisters and brothers : P Keep care of you... Also could I maybe change my name here to just Liz too??? Because it happened that Liz is now my favourite and everyone except my family calls me now Liz.

... So after recovering from my eye surgery at 76 years old, I decided to take it to the streets—dancing, of course. Not sure exactly when I'll recover from acting like a teenager last night, but I don't care. IT WAS WORTH IT! Bumped into a group of out trans and non-binary folks. All of them were younger, but they didn't care. All of that therapy and exercise became worth it. I almost forgot how liberating dancing can be. Wow, just wow!

Goood Morning lovely people : ) I hope you will all have a happy day

I pray to the Father in his Son's name. I mostly ask one thing, "If I'm supposed to be a woman, make me a woman, if I'm supposed to be a man, show me through my current therapy, where I am opening myself up to either possibility. Show me, put it in my mind, MAKE me a woman or a man, whatever you want me to be and I will accept it. I'm leaning on you, big guy." 

Hi, newbie here. Been to 3 therapists. My new one is the best. 2nd one was the worst so I'm glad I stopped with her. I support the idea of dealing with your demons as well as discussing dysphoria. I told my new therapist that I need to focus on my anxiety and depression, and my repression/resistance to any inkling of dysphoria. I consider dealing with that to be key. I may discover I am full-on binary female, or I may discover I am some form of nonbinary. I'm good with either diagnosis. Negativity clouds your thinking skills and could interfere with that. Dealing with the whole of myself is the best way forward and I recommend it to everyone. Good luck! :)

Wow! Ok, makes sense. Thanks for the answer. :)

I've got some more updates! Not many but a couple.  1. As it turns out, I'm allergic to the trans tape's adhesive. I originally thought I had just removed it incorrectly but nope, turns out I had developed a very itchy rash. As you can probably imagine, this was very distressing for me and still is, since compression tops are really my last option until I can save up for a reduction. I can't wear binders because of my chest size and pressure making my acid reflux worse.  2. I was able to talk to my mom about this at length and it was actually thanks to her gay coworker, who suggested talking to me, referring to me more neutrally, and finding an LGBTQ+ support group. We've made decent headway on the first, and are still working on the second and third. She did mention how it'd be easier for her if I brought these topics up more, which is pretty hard because I'm still nervous (she doesn't understand very well at all but she's trying) and I honestly don't think about my identity much in my day to day life unless something comes up. I'm less nervous than I was though, so that's something!  3. It was a swimsuit that did me in today. I was just looking for a cheap one to go under my swim shirt (since it doesn't have anything to support my chest built in), and found a really pretty ombre red, purple, and blue swim top. I was going to get it until I tried it on and it accentuated everything I didn't want it to (ie my chest). I loved how it looked but I hated how it looked on me, and I'm still upset about that. I want to and deserve to feel comfortable in my body wearing what I'd like, but I can't do that at this point. Hence why I'm saving up for a reduction and my limit has gone from "Oh a moderate A cup will be fine" to "As much as the surgeon can take off while still keeping it natural." I guess I've graduated to a full mastectomy at this point, but I want to check exactly how small a surgeon can go. I'm just sick and tired of these weird grapefruit stuck to my chest and how they make me feel.  So yeah, it's been... a lot but also a little at the same time. 

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Hi, Ann!  Welcome to the forums. We’re glad you found us. I’m sure and admin will jump int to answer the question. In the meantime, look around and jump in where you feel comfortable!

Hi Ann, and welcome to the community! It's so great to have you join us. ~Lilis

Just to clarify, the surgeries are performed on children who are either externally Intersex with ambiguous genitalia which is all done on infants without the child's consent or who have precocious or exaggerated development of the secondary sex characteristics  such as reductions for breast growth anomalies which can cause spinal and other growth problems. There are also items that may affect Cis males.  All of those are at the will of the parent (hopefully with medical concurrence) because the child is too young to give consent on their own.  In some cases though, Intersex children have been given the wrong surgical correction which has a greater level of regret than ones done to Trans youth.

These people simply refuse to believe their own eyes. But that goes along with "What you see is not what's happening" as someone once said.  And they claim we are the ones denying reality. 

https://www.advocate.com/health/gender-affirming-surgery-minors-rate   ""Little to no" gender-affirming surgeries are being performed on minors in the United States, and those that are performed are overwhelmingly on cisgender minors."   “Our findings highlight a bitter irony: that by banning gender-affirming care for only TGD people, these bills are targeting a group that in reality accounts for the minority of gender-affirming care use and for whom gender-affirming care has been most clearly shown to be lifesaving,"    I have heard that "Gender Affirming" is okay for cis people - just not for trans people. Sounds a lot like discrimination to me.