Well the HRT is doing it's job up top. That area has been sensitive for a month now, and now I'm starting to get some growth. It's minor but it's something! My doctor said to be patient as it'll take 2-4 years to finish, but as long as it's working that's all that matters to me. I'm in no rush, i have pads for my bra for now. I'm finally used to wearing it as well. It gets annoying in martial arts class and dance but I'm guessing I'll get used to that part eventually

If anyone needs a little break from all the negative news regarding our community,  I offer the following link to the GLAAD website section titled "Heroes of the Resistance."   https://glaad.org/heroes-of-the-resistance-lawmakers-activists-and-others-accelerating-acceptance-for-lgbtq-rights/    

I agree, Charlize.  The acting is terrific, the plot very interesting and the political intrigue fascinating.  I learned a lot and enjoyed the learning.   Carolyn Marie

If you don't have all the support you may need where you live, are you asking for help with that? Will you move to another state for it? Many are moving. Come to Massachusetts, if you'd like—we're pretty lucky with our leaders so far. I hope you find all the help you need wherever you are. Buen viaje.   https://www.theguardian.com/us-news/ng-interactive/2025/apr/24/american-refugees-escape

Hi & welcome @Jake. Thank you for sharing your story. You say you're ready, but ask if it's too soon. It sounds like your perception of others' expectations are holding you back. Is that the case? You're the one who gets to decide whether you're ready. You have every permission to hold the reigns on the narrative of your life. So, I recommend thinking deeply on why you suspect it may be too soon despite your feeling ready. Much love to you & look forward to hearing more from you.

I'm thinking similar thoughts.  Not because of Trump, but because of my GF.  I've felt for a couple years that she isn't happy about my boy form.  But I'm not happy or comfortable in girl form, really.

I know I could never go back. Now that the little light above my head finally flickered on. I am who I am and no one can change that. 47 be damned.   Pending the return of a background check. I will be the new testing center proctor for Laramie County Community Collage, Laramie campus. I received the email just a bit ago. So, I am going to be a working girl again soon. (@Willow get your mind out of the gutter.)   Hugs, all   Kymmie

I don't think I could go back either.  And I really don't want to, despite all this crap.

WOW @KymmieL that was odd. To be honest lately with all the crap 47 is throwing around I have considered returning to male mode outside the home.  But too many people know and like me, Willow, and that sob shouldn’t be able to undo years of change and acceptance. Not now, not ever.  I am accepted by my customers, my family they many LBGT groups around me, my Doctors but most of all by my church and God.  And because of my church and God’s insistence that I become a pastor, I am known by people all over the State of South Carolina. Now I just have to figure out where I go from here.

This time there are life boats.

Sending lots of love and positive vibes your way @KymmieL both for the job and for acceptance...even the transmission.    At least you've gained one more supporter in the family!!

Had something good happen when I least expected it. I couldn't sleep again so got up this morn at 1am. As normal I do a little surfing the WWW.  Our youngest is still up. He asks me if I still feel like transitioning. I say no. Then he throws me and says. If you did I would support you. I tell him the feeling is there but not acting on them.   My mind is like holey sheep dip. The first real voiced acceptance from him. When a few years a go we wound up getting into a brawl about it. kind of made my day. Now 2 of my sons accept me. now for my oldest and wife. Which I think is a unwinnable battle. But who knows.   Still haven't heard about the position yet. Hoping today. Still waiting to hear about the transmission for the wagon. Getting anxious to get her put back together.   Hugs, all.   Kymmie

Not my words. I learnt today that a local singer has released an album with that title. Those words struck a chord with me, and I just had to write about them in a different but relatable context to the artist, who was coming out about her sexuality.    The first person we ever come out to is ourselves. Take a damn good look in the mirror, etc.   I'm just wondering, how universal is the feeling that once we accept ourselves for who we really are, it is like we are meeting a new person for the very first time, at the same time as knowing that it will be a permanent, soul-mate type of relationship?

I can totally relate to that.   I used to think that to justify my transness, I needed to apply my femininity to the max. For me that didn't mean drag or anything; it meant walking a certain way or displaying other physical mannerisms that just weren't me (that said, certain feminine mannerisms naturally ARE me).    Maybe it was only six months ago, I'm not sure, that I had a bit of an epiphany. It was almost as strong as the one I had a few years ago when I lost all shame about letting my inner woman dictate terms. What I realized was that not all women permanently have their nails done or have their hair styled, not all women cross their legs while sitting, not all women shave their underarms every other day etc. I am far more relaxed just being me nowadays as a result.