Good morning y’all, all of good here just been dealing with bipolar weather conditions. It goes from nice to cold to raining sometimes all in one day lol. I’ve been dealing with some excessive pain lately as my pain meds weren’t working so my Dr switched them and added a muscle relaxer which knocks me out and and just have to be patient to allow the new pain meds weren’t working to start taking full effect. I was feeling beautiful mentally as I usually do though yesterday want to reflect my feelings externally so I got dressed up for my birthday celebration. Had a good time though my sister was being very judgmental as well as impatient. We were supposed to meet someone at a club/ bar for a drag show and dancing though she’s wanted to leave before they got there. So I/ we missed Dylan’s company and went somewhere she wanted and received instant Karma as the service was extremely poor because we asked for menus after ordering drinks were totally disregarded by our server the a gentleman came in a bit after us. Same server got a drink menu and was approached about ordering off the menu and got a app and meal. I expressed how unimpressed I was clearly and was glad I wasn’t paying because the server wouldn’t have got a good tip if one at all. Well that’s enough ranting for the month lol. On the plus side Dylan and I will schedule a date another time and I still had a good time besides the poor service.   Peace, Hugs and Happiness, Silas

The grooming begins, after health checks, you have to have a good chance of being cis norm, I was small, thin, and looked more female even without hormones. But i was a nonconformist!! for me it was not about clothes, or makeup, it was far deeper, I just did not fit in or understand me. I refused to get in role and was knocked back six months, inside i was screaming to just end it. I was locked in a controlled nightmare, often reduced to shaking with fear. I was told to do as i was told and get on, turning up in role didn't feel right worse still having to get a job or go to Uni or College, i tried a few different things and found secretarial training more me, although i did apply for a job in Manchester at a call center called number one the board rooms, a sex chat line, but it wasn't me. I made a few friends at secretarial college six months past and eventually i was permitted to start hormones

What is your most sustaining joy?

@Betty K Dark indeed. Spirl down intense.

Good morning to yet another nondescript day here in the kingdom!! The usual Saturday wash bedding, tidy house feed Mia, she feeds Customers, although we havent seen Sammy for a few days which is a little worrying. The trees are now completely green. A few more pictures from the walk the other day. Hopefully better weather on Sunday   

And, I think we need to forgive ourselves for that damage, as much as we can. I can't change what I did, but I can accept it and move forward.

This is true.  I'm still dealing with a lot of it.

I remember getting ready in the wings ready to do a grand Jete En Tournant so this was my flash back    Meaning turn in the air

Consults captains log, star date.... the inner core appears to be very much the same, that is to say systems functioning normal. The outer core is getting a bit flaky and may be due for a refit. Again looking at the log we do appear to have been through some strange anomalies. 

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https://outreach.faith/2025/04/transgender-people-to-be-part-of-vatican-organized-send-off-of-pope-francis/   I think this is a wonderful touch, and very much in keeping with Francis' views about the trans community.   Carolyn Marie

https://www.kron4.com/news/bay-area/truck-driver-convicted-of-murdering-concord-transgender-woman/   Some excellent police work done in this case.  Hat's off to the police or sheriff's department in Contra Costa County.   Carolyn Marie

https://www.nbcnews.com/nbc-out/out-politics-and-policy/transgender-care-minors-doctors-investigate-doj-pam-bondi-rcna202807   Fear is this administration's most effective weapon, and it's main modus operandi.  It might work in this case.   Carolyn Marie