Hi, Julia.  Welcome!   When I was young, I was always a girl in my daydreams.  It made no sense to me at the time, but of course now it does.   If you find this confusing, I would recommend seeing a gender therapist.  They can help you sort out what you are feeling and what, if anything, you would like to do about it.

I remember when I was a child my night dreams of going down a slide and in some steps get some feminine parts until the end where I'm as a girl. I don't know why I'm here but sometimes I'm aflict about this, I work a lot, and before work a lot I had used drugs a lot, and I think maybe I did this things only because I'm running away of me. I need to go, she is comming.

Thanks for the support, I have finished writing a draft of a letter/email that I'll send out. My close family is supportive and I will get my mum to proof read as she is closer to the target audience.   Hi,   I am writing this to explain some stuff about myself. I've been feeling like this for about 4-5 years. My experience of gender is not static like most people. Some days I am happy being perceived as a guy, other days I hate it and I wish I'd been born a girl or could be one. I fluctuate between those two extremes. It's sometimes hard to tell where exactly I am.   For you guys, I would love it if you stopped calling me Will and could call me Billie instead. I would also like to be referred to with they/them pronouns.   If you have any questions, feel free to ask via email.   Thanks, Billie Hampshire  

I was kidding  

Working on doubting myself much less, because it helps me from judging myself and others much less. And that leads to having more social life. Fun.

Pedro Pascal calls JK Rowling a ‘heinous loser’ in wake of supreme court gender ruling.  The actor has long been an activist for LGBTQ+ rights and has a transgender sister who often accompanies him on the red carpet. https://www.theguardian.com/film/2025/apr/25/pedro-pascal-calls-jk-rowling-harry-potter-supreme-court-gender-ruling

Sending love and strength for you!

You have certainly had an amazing journey.  I envied people who could do ballet but also feared the distain my parents and so many felt for the men involved.  The 50's as a child taught me such negative values.  I am blessed to have then lived through the late 60's.  We raised children with long hair.   Thank you for sharing your journey with us!   Hugs,   Charlize

Good morning y’all, all of good here just been dealing with bipolar weather conditions. It goes from nice to cold to raining sometimes all in one day lol. I’ve been dealing with some excessive pain lately as my pain meds weren’t working so my Dr switched them and added a muscle relaxer which knocks me out and and just have to be patient to allow the new pain meds weren’t working to start taking full effect. I was feeling beautiful mentally as I usually do though yesterday want to reflect my feelings externally so I got dressed up for my birthday celebration. Had a good time though my sister was being very judgmental as well as impatient. We were supposed to meet someone at a club/ bar for a drag show and dancing though she’s wanted to leave before they got there. So I/ we missed Dylan’s company and went somewhere she wanted and received instant Karma as the service was extremely poor because we asked for menus after ordering drinks were totally disregarded by our server the a gentleman came in a bit after us. Same server got a drink menu and was approached about ordering off the menu and got a app and meal. I expressed how unimpressed I was clearly and was glad I wasn’t paying because the server wouldn’t have got a good tip if one at all. Well that’s enough ranting for the month lol. On the plus side Dylan and I will schedule a date another time and I still had a good time besides the poor service.   Peace, Hugs and Happiness, Silas

The grooming begins, after health checks, you have to have a good chance of being cis norm, I was small, thin, and looked more female even without hormones. But i was a nonconformist!! for me it was not about clothes, or makeup, it was far deeper, I just did not fit in or understand me. I refused to get in role and was knocked back six months, inside i was screaming to just end it. I was locked in a controlled nightmare, often reduced to shaking with fear. I was told to do as i was told and get on, turning up in role didn't feel right worse still having to get a job or go to Uni or College, i tried a few different things and found secretarial training more me, although i did apply for a job in Manchester at a call center called number one the board rooms, a sex chat line, but it wasn't me. I made a few friends at secretarial college six months past and eventually i was permitted to start hormones

What is your most sustaining joy?

@Betty K Dark indeed. Spirl down intense.

Good morning to yet another nondescript day here in the kingdom!! The usual Saturday wash bedding, tidy house feed Mia, she feeds Customers, although we havent seen Sammy for a few days which is a little worrying. The trees are now completely green. A few more pictures from the walk the other day. Hopefully better weather on Sunday   

And, I think we need to forgive ourselves for that damage, as much as we can. I can't change what I did, but I can accept it and move forward.